Date Added
Monday, January 5th, 2009
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Cocoon of submission
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Mistress Alexa
Wow… i checked for email, hoping to find something while trying not to expect anything, trying not to feel let down or disappointed if nothing is there.probably too much thought going into it.Yet, when i found your email, i wasn’t prepared at all.i found myself flush, weak with a subtle tingling throughout, and feeling quite submissive and eager to read your message.
i find myself communicating personal, even secretive, hidden, intimate information that i have not always admitted to myself with an enticingly beautiful woman whose mere voice weakens my entire being, whose sight excites my sexually. Even a faint recognition of my reaction to you and the nature of our interaction seems to seal me within a cocoon of a submissive, in trance-like state.
Part of me has left only to be replaced by some other ’self’ which craves and needs this feeling.The more i feel this , the more i long to ‘let go’ of the primary self to give way to this other, submissive self.It just doens’t really go away.Somehow, i want to embrace it.i want it; i simply want it.
Is there such a thing as a submissive hormone?There definately is something going on within me.Neuro-Psycho-Chemical.Alexa asked if I was always like this.She mentioned that i sounded like i was to be subjected to fate or death. She was right; i am different, somehow lost in this other part of myself.Though i’ve ‘known’ that i felt this, felt differnt, i wasn’t realy aware of it.i’m feeling this way now and realize it, but i don’t know what to do with it or how to snap out of it – or even if i want to.
Some one stopped by, knocked on my door and asked about work stuff.i had to really concentrate and even still wasn’t my usual professional self.
Still weak. i have to admit, i just put on the slip and it feels so sexy.It does ‘flow’ over me softly caressing my skin, leaving my nipples a little tingly – though i’m a little tingly all over anyway.i didn’t get a short plunger yet, maybe on the way home.
i really want to talk to you right now.please don’t misunderstand me. i’m not looking for or wanting sexual release.I really don’t want it right now.i’m not even hard, well, ok, semi-hard.i don’t know how to describe it.i feel weak, too weak to endure standing.i feel as if i need to lie in a soft bed of submission within your room of dominance.
since, i can not predict when i should call and feel almost imposing to call at my convenience or peak desire, i am giving myself to you from a distance.my beeper is xxx-xxx-xxxx.If you’d like me to call you, just leave the number with a “*”. For some reason i want you to have this, even if you don’t use it.
goodnight. i need to try to rap some things up and should get ready to go home. Thank your for the quick email.
– Cocoon